I've decided to stop taking it because it no longer seems to be doing me much good. Primarily, I just don't feel happy -- and I have no reason not to. I mean, there are reasons why I'm not content (like my total disaster of a house!), but everything that makes me unhappy is totally within my control to fix. I know this, I even know how to fix it, but I just can't seem to muster the energy to do anything about anything. And this seems to be getting worse. Plus I miss a lot of work because I can't sleep at night, then I oversleep. Or I just don't feel like working that day, so I call in sick. This started a couple of years ago, and I thought it had to do with the job, but I've switched jobs and I'm still having the same problem.
I started taking the antidepressant at a time in my life where I really needed to make a change for myself and for my children. I don't think I would have been able to successfully leave and divorce my ex if it weren't for the drugs (for awhile I was on two).
Now that the crisis is past, maybe I don't need the drug. Maybe it is creating this horrible lethargy that I've been dealing with for the past two years. Or maybe I need MORE drugs. The difficulty with that is the doctor told me to get some blood work done over a year ago and basically told me that it better be done before my next visit, which was this past Wednesday. Well, I still didn't get it done. So I had to reschedule the appointment. How ridiculous is that? And, no, I don't have a problem with needles. The problem is I can't seem to get myself up and moving on the day I plan to do it, and so I leave it for the next Monday I don't have to be to work until 10:30. And this is basically how my life has been for the last two years.
So, we'll see if this helps.